17april
so I left
since you implied that you didn't need me
you said I don't have to know
you said there's nothing left
so I left
and leaving took quite a bit of me away
leaving me with an empty shell with nothing to hold on to
why
there's no why, it just is
I have no idea where we're headed but I do know that we can't be what we used to be
that would never happen
I can't go on being best friends without the need to be in your life anymore
since you decided you don't need me then well I respect your choice
it wasn't a sudden decision
been accumulated all this while, just didn't have the courage to leave completely, without anything left behind
I don't want to have a reason to go back
6june
and yes it's more than that
it's hate now
I don't know how but I finally realized I must stop creating excuses for you
I must love myself more than I love you
I must protect myself from you
and that's when I saw it
I saw how you manipulated me
how you broke me
do you know how.. broken I was?
do you know what you made me go through?
it was the worse that could have ever happened
I hate you.
there I said it
realized how dumb I was to think that it was okay
so I don't want anything, nothing, to do with you
please just disappear from my life
it'll be better without you
24june
I can't help it I do miss you
but there's nothing I can do about it
since you didn't want me to participate in your life, then there's no point holding on
I left on my own accord yes
but you didn't stop me either
I don't know why I'm still harping on it
why the sudden throwback
Park Owner 
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6A'06♥
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
