I can't do this anymore. he just treats me like I'll always be there and he expects me to never ever leave. but I really can't act like there isnt still this small part of me that can't let go. I've been telling myself that it's not possible alr. I fucking hate myself man. I just can't love myself enough to know that he doesn't love me at all. I keep letting myself fall into these kinds of situation. it's never gonna help. I just wanna forget everything and start over. I don't even know what came over me that day to go to him. dumbest and most retarded decision I've ever made in my entire life. why can't I just learn to love myself more??