why can't I ever fucking hold promises to myself?!
after what happened, promised that I won't let myself fall into the same kind of situations again and I promised that I would love myself and stop being so fucking despo
so?
what happened to all those promises huh?
what happened to controlling what I feel?
it's just so hard and the temptations are so fucking strong
but still, no excuses
fucking hate ppl who break promises
so I should just hate myself as well
fuck when will I ever learn man
no more means no more why do I always convince myself that it'll be the last?!???! it never is!!!
there'll always be repercussions and it'll be worse than the last
fuck la!
ok this is it
that'll seriously be the last time
one small thing always leads to something even more so no! I'm not gonna think that it's ok for the small thing to happen anymore
zero!
ZERO
I swear
no more!

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