fuck this
and I thought I wouldn't be affected anymore
cause seeing you doesn't even matter
but wtf
after what I heard today
opinion of you totally changed man
fuck myself la
why so fucking dumb
there was no sort of hate for you even though I alr guessed the truth
but seriously? from the fucking start?!
fuck this I have no idea how I fell for it I must have been so fucking dumb
and you fucking tell ppl about it wtf
are you that much of a show off?
or are you so insecure about yourself that you have announce to the whole world what you did?!
never really thought of burning or whacking you or whatever ppl have been saying I should do
but after today, I feel like just walking straight up to you and slap your fucking face
don't even bother thinking about starting to talk to you anymore
cause it's totally not worth it man
such a fucktard like you should just burn in hell man
or better still, burn to death

so fucking pissed with myself
how did I even let it happen so easily?!
fuck la
I'm just so fucking agitated now I can't even think properly

and nothing is helping man! NOTHING!
not even after talking/ranting
it's just boils down to the same question: why did I let it happen?!?!?!?!??
mother fuck
I guess I would never forgive myself for this
fucking first time crying cause of the agitation instead of being sad
I fucking hate myself la
fuck beating myself up and crying nonstop now while I'm typing

ugh so angry it's getting to my head
I have no idea what I'm typing

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