idk why
but i've been kind of moody recently
when nobody's around
i'll just suddenly break down and cry out loud
i have no idea for what reason
i have no idea what upset me
i have no idea about what
but it just felt like the whole world's crashing down onto me and i couldnt do anything about it
i feel so useless
so dumb
so..empty

but in front of my friends
i know i have to put up a strong front
i laugh
i joke
i say they're being random
i smile and say "of course i'm okay! HAHAHA!"

but yknow what?
im not
and idk whats wrong either
so just.. dont bother asking

cause i seriously wont know the answer

9:03 PM